Several years ago as I was reading the scriptures and I came across one (of many) that talked about receiving a new heart. I thought about that for a long time, and prayed that I might understand what that meant. I felt like I really needed a huge change in my attitude and my ability to love. I knew that I could not do it myself so as I continued to read, pray, and even fast I began to see a change within myself. I began to understand that until I could really begin to love myself, my ability to love others was greatly diminished. I was overly judgemental of others because my judgement of myself was so harsh. Therefore my judgement of my husband and children was also overly harsh.
As I began to really look at myself and give myself permission to be 'human' and make mistakes, I started giving others the same consideration. I haven't really mastered it yet, but I am improving. Although I do find it is easier to give friends, family, neighbors, and my clients more room for error than myself, but I am still working on it. I feel like tons of pressure has been lifted off of my shoulders as I allow the Lord to bless me with a new heart, and he can only do that as I put forth the effort to improve.
Not only has my love for my family improved, but it seems to have helped pull my family members closer together. It never ceases to amaze me how our own attitude affects others. I am so grateful for the love and forgiveness I have received from my family members over the years as I have worked to improve my life and my attitude. They have all helped me to continue to improve my ability to change. I love you ALL so much.
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